Totally Frenched Out

From the blogger formerly known as Samdebretagne

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Post 1

Last night was my last night at the gîte. It looks so strange here, what with all of our stuff gone - almost like we were never here. I think Fab is going to be in for a shock when he shows up here tonight - he has no clue that I either sold or gave away everything. And I mean everything - all the blankets, all the dishes, tout. He asked for the TV and the computer, and that's what he's getting. Rien de plus.

My MIL is picking us up and bringing us to the train station at noon, and then we're off to stay in Rennes for the night (thanks Alisa!). And then we'll be on the 6am train to CDG, loaded down like pack mules with all of my luggage. I have to come back to Brittany for a few days in May when I get back to take care of a few things, but it already feels bittersweet to be leaving here today. Up until a few weeks ago, I was counting down the days until we moved out of the gîte (and into our new place), and I just feel sad because now this move represents so much more.



Blogger Karina said...

bravo sam, its not easy but getting rid of everything possible is the best way to have a clean break. sounds like you won't be there when he stops by, i hope not anyway. enjoy your time at home and even though its hard and sucks try to think about all the AMAZING things you can do in the future. you've got so many gifts and talents i'm so sure that you'll carve out a wonderful nitch for yourself whether it be in Paris, Finland or around the world ;-)
gros bisous and have a safe trip!

April 24, 2008 at 9:05 AM  
Blogger Diane said...

Ah Sam, my heart goes out to you. I hope you look forward though and not back. Getting rid of everything was a smart move. No more extra baggage. I would also love to see his face when he drops by. Maybe it will finally sink in, all the damage he has done.
And now onward, to a new adventure...

April 24, 2008 at 9:17 AM  
Blogger Global Librarian said...

I agree it is best to make that clean break. It hurts now, but it will get better. It really well.

April 24, 2008 at 9:24 AM  
Blogger ViVi said...

Oh man, I wish I could see his face when he gets there tonight!! Ah well, I wouldn't feel so sorry for him, I'm sure Kmart will help him out.

On a serious note, I know this is so hard right now, but unfortunately the only way to heal is with time. I do believe you'll be able to visit the area again someday, and maybe you'll always have a little pang, it won't be as hard as it is now.

Also - don't be afraid to let yourself grieve, either! There's nothing wrong with that. Remember - there's no right or wrong way to get through a major breakup; just go at your own pace and you'll be fine.

Keep your chin up, girl! You have an enormous support system - don't be afraid to use it! :)

*big hugs*

April 24, 2008 at 9:46 AM  
Blogger barbara said...

Even if we have never met,I really do feel for you, Sam.
I know that was hard, and it does take a lot of courage.
Like the gîte has gotten rid of it's excess,you will too.

You are moving out and ahead.And I think that you are on to bigger and better things.

April 24, 2008 at 10:05 AM  
Blogger Alisa said...

Yep, this move does represent so much more... because it represents a new beginning for you. Who knows where you'll be in a few years and you can look back and say 'Wow, that was a great new start, leaving that dumb gîte'. Unfortunately it doesn't feel that way right now, but you'll get there... just find ways to fill the days, and eventually they will fill up all on their own. :)

April 24, 2008 at 2:13 PM  
Blogger Jules said...

I don't think I would have left the computer or tv even. So I am a little lost, are you going back to your mom's now?

April 24, 2008 at 3:19 PM  
Blogger Corine said...

Bon voyage Sam, et gros bisous.

April 24, 2008 at 4:02 PM  
Blogger The Late Bloomer said...

Hang in there, Sam. Like so many others have said, time is the only thing that will heal... I know it sounds clichéd, but it really is true. And some distance, of course, as well. I hope you enjoy your time with your Mom -- I didn't get from this post whether you'll be visiting a bit of Paris while she's here or not, but I'm sure you'll make the most of it. And have you decided where you will settle down for a bit in Paris in the next few months? Please let us know! Looking forward to the opportunity to finally meet up, when you have a chance.

Take good care of yourself, and look forward to all the great things you are going to accomplish in the future.

April 24, 2008 at 4:15 PM  
Blogger Alison said...

Here's to new beginnings. *hug*

April 24, 2008 at 6:09 PM  
Blogger Sophie said...

Good luck Sam to your new future! One step ahead in a new life adventure.
Tell us, why did you choose Paris? Do you have some contacts there?
Paris is an incredible city, but to live there is another talk I think. Talk about agressiveness! I hope you'll like it.

April 24, 2008 at 8:03 PM  
Blogger Alyssa said...

I'm with Jules--I totally wouldn't have left the TV or computer either. Maybe I'm a little meaner than you! (-:
I can only imagine how surreal things feel now, what with you being in such a state of transition with no real idea of what is on the other side. Please take lots of deep breaths, get as many hugs as possible from those around you, and just put one foot in front of the other.
We'll be waiting here for an update.
Here's to a new beginning Sam!

April 24, 2008 at 8:28 PM  
Blogger Leesa said...

Hi Sam,

I am glad you are going home for a few weeks... change of scenery... see friends and fam... and then you will see how things will start to look up when you move to Paris... I am looking forward to meeting you and to have a cafe' latte' at Starbucks at Opera (my fav). Anyhow.. These things are NEVER easy! I really admire you for all of the positive steps you are taking to insure your happiness and well-being! Take care and see you soon.... Hugs, Leesa

April 25, 2008 at 6:54 AM  

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