Totally Frenched Out

From the blogger formerly known as Samdebretagne

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Bitter much?

Fab called me the other day, just to see how I was doing, and it left me with a really bad taste in my mouth. For the first time, I felt angry with him - how is it fair that he gets to be happy? He screwed me over, and he's the one who's happy. I've always said I wanted him to be happy, but I sure wasn't feeling it then. Shame on me for wanting him to know what it's like to be hurt so badly. But hey, we've all got our weak moments. And at least I'm comforted in knowing that he always feels like crap after talking to me too. I don't know why that makes me feel better, but it does - like I'm not completely alone in my suffering.

He did share two pieces of news with me though, one good and one bad. The nice ex-SIL is pregnant, which is funny, because I had a dream last time I talked to her that she had a bun in the oven, so I asked her and she said no, we're not even trying. So congrats to them, she will make a wonderful mother (the verdict is still out on Fab's step-brother though, lol). The bad news is that the Père Chesnas died this weekend - he's the crazy (but lovable) old priest I've written about a few times before on my old blog. RIP Père.

PS. Père, if you're looking down on us from up there, please feel free to play a little trick on Fabrice - you know, escaped cows, a flat tractor tire - something along those lines. I promise I won't tell anyone and we both know he deserves it!! :)



Blogger emaleejayne said...

Talk about weird news - I got a text, followed by a call, from the old French boyfriend the other day - who I had not spoken to for months - letting me know that he is now a DAD. WTF? hahaha Some things are better left behind! ;)

January 21, 2009 at 6:14 PM  
Blogger jadie said...

so sorry to hear you've had to revisit that sad/angry pit-of-the-stomach place, sam. i am waiting for that day, certain to arrive, when you will meet someone who makes your heart sing and dance. meanwhile, you are putting things together so well...

January 21, 2009 at 10:18 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i think you have the right to tell him he betrayed you seriously and that it is, and will remain, a major life stress. his actions have consequences.

January 21, 2009 at 11:47 PM  
Blogger Oneika said...

Don't talk to him if it makes you feel bad! I have gone down that road before... And have always felt awful when my ex seems so happy without me in his life. Karma will come back to kick Fab in the ass... And in the meantime, know that you are doing WONDERFUL without him, though it may be hard at times!

January 22, 2009 at 12:52 PM  
Blogger Anon said...

When he calls you it is something he is doing for him, not for you. Don't give him the satisfaction!

Your future is bright! Shed the past...

January 22, 2009 at 2:44 PM  

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